Lord's prayer

Our Father in heaven,
Hallowed be Your name.
10 Your kingdom come.
Your will be done
On earth as it is in heaven.
11 Give us this day our daily bread.
12 And forgive us our debts,
As we forgive our debtors.
13 And do not lead us into temptation,
But deliver us from the evil one.
For Yours is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever. Amen.


Thank you God for giving us Lord's prayer, so that we know what we should pray for and understand the manner of Christian.

No fear in love

There are different reasons in different people fighting for depression. I'm a lucky one that know about my reason. Being a Christian, it could be easy or it could hard depends on your theology. I know my root problem. The problem is employing other people's negative theology and becomes my super negative theology. This can totally drown me to the darkness and destroy my life.

This is really painful to recall the memory  of the horrible year of depression. I found nothing interested and just wanted to cry everyday. I saw everything sad and dark. There were no hope, no life and lots of nightmares. No one understand me and I avoid talk to others because of the super negative theology. On the other hand, I would not think they are right. Every time, my husband tried to correct my thoughts. I just refused and didn't think he is right. I guess I was so believed in my super negative theology.

The environments can be negative, the world can be negative, my mind can be negative, my thoughts can be negative, voices can be negative,  even my prayers can be negative but only God in this universe is infinitely positive who is Jesus. I read the book of Luke in KJV again and again. I was so desperate for Jesus's words. I had nightmares for one whole year. I woke up and cried. I couldnt sleep because my mind was still extending the nightmares. The negative thoughts and feelings trapped in my mind day and night. Endless! I called Jesus every time. When I was emotionally collapsed,  when I was in my chronic nightmare, when I was in my negative thoughts, I called Him. Jesus! Jesus! Jesus! Nothing on earth can help me but only Him. I know that He is the ultimate positive in an infinity level. He is our Saviour forever and ever.

My negative thoughts couldn't be completely vanished in a simply click but I started reading pschology book. I tried my best to understand anxiety and depression. This is a long term process but we need patience and love. I really like this bible verse "there is no fear in love" (1 joh 4:18) because only Jesus gives me hope.

Forgiveness in motherhood

Forgiveness in motherhood
If your child scared of you, you actually lead them cover their sins in front of you.
If you show your love and forgiveness to their faults, you will be their friend forever and this actually diminishes the chance of bigger sins that used to cover up the small sins.

Forgiveness from Jesus
Jesus wants us to love God but not fear. Therefore He forgives us and avoid you from bigger sins. He gives us the best of everything for living in His words. The best relationships with husbands, wife, son, or daughter,  the best of your personality, the best friendships, the best decision making, the best meaningful life (your purpose is greater than yourself) . All in all, a better you!